I apologize for not writing in my blog for quite a while. Life has kinda gotten away from me. I pray that you all are doing well! Time is flying by in FMA. I can't believe I'm a Junior already! The Lord has been impacting my heart greatly this semester and I just want to share a little revelation that He has given me! I've been on this topic for about 4 months now with God and He has gripped my heart with His truth!
The Lord has been teaching me more about weakness. I know that we are called to weakness, but there is a tangible reality that hits you when you're faced with your own weakness. In a way, I felt like my weakness hit me in the face. A lot of what I knew has been stripped from me. Nothing is the same. In the midst of pretty difficult times, I have learned to lean. Many people view leaning as a negative thing. But instead of going that route, the Lord has changed my perspective altogether! Weakness is true humility. False humility says that you have to be strong, perfect and poised. It puts expectations and weights on your shoulders that you were not meant to carry. False humility can also go the other way and drown you in self pity or depression. The Lord's way of humility says, "I know am weak, but I boast in my weakness; and in that, the Lord is made perfect in me!"
"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." ~2 Cor. 12:9
"He gives power to the weak, And to [those who have] no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall, But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew [their] strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint." ~Isaiah 40:29-31I know the Lord delights in my weakness. He says, "OK, now that we've gotten your pride and self ambition out of the way, I can really work." It's when I came to the end of myself that He could then transform me! I realized that HE DOESN'T NEED ME! He is sufficient in and of Himself. It's not about what I want. It's about what He wants. Just like Misty Edwards sings, "It's an inside outside, upside down kingdom, where you lose to gain and you die to live." When I allow the Lord to transform me, He uses me in ways that I could never imagine. I am just a weak person with nothing to offer, but He decides to show His majesty through me to glorify His name. He chooses the weak, not the strong. He chose the disciples, the throw-aways of biblical culture that couldn't "cut it" and weren't good enough to go to rabbi school. The ones who weren't incredibly intelligent or gifted. And the Pharisees that had all the wisdom, wealth, and status, He called foolish.
"But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty. and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, that no flesh should glory in His presence." ~1 Corinthians 1:29-31I'm here to glorify Him in my weakness. I may not be the best at everything. I may not measure up to the world's standards of greatness. I may be wasting my life. But it is all worth it! I get to sit before the feet of the King of Kings every single day and adore Him, behold Him, and learn from Him. And if at the end of the day, I never become anyone big, or do anything huge, it's ok. It's not about labels or names or status. I just want to please Him. And I know that He desires me and loves me. In my weakness, He is making me a stronger woman every single day!
